What kind of experience does the creative have when creating? A graceful one, says Simone Weil in Waiting for God. But it's a very personal thing. “The conditions of intellectual or artistic creation are so intimate and secret that no one can penetrate into them from outside." Many think this excuses bad behaviour, since many artists create from hubris. "But it has to do with something very different in my case,” she says.
“There is a moment, in the [creativity] of every great artist, of every great poet,” writes Giorgio Agamben, “when the image of beauty that until then he seemed to have chased like a continual ascending elevation, suddenly inverts its tendency and shows itself, so to speak, vertically, falling.” This is the experience creatives might feel: a weightless descent of grace.
The gold, the brightness of this painting represents the grace inherent in Weil's Gravity and Grace, and the meaning of waiting she implies in Waiting for God. Simone Weil has informed this painting, so that its meaning only become apparent to me after reading Weil's words.